'dear, boy.
i may start to stop ya, maybe it's the time. even i love you more and more. maybe it's time to stop it all. stop to loving you, stop to caring, stop standing for you, and stop doing something more for you. let's be back. back to when everything i do is without something special. why seeing you standing there, makes all what i want to do in order to can go from you just ruins so sudden? why? then what should i do? i want let everything as it have to be. i want to stop this pressure. i want to stop this all. i can't take any longer. this pressure is killing me slow but sure. this pressure got by dissapointed, regret, sorry, love, jealous and many more. thousand times i said to my self, to stop it. but it's always ruins so sudden, when i see your eyes, your nose, your lips, your face, you. please help me. i begged. please. it's hurt when seeing you, but it's should be more when you're not there. what should i do?? help me to stop, please. please. i'm being stuck fast. i got sick from this situation. i miss my old smile, when i smile with no press there. when my smile, i get from my heart not just in face. help me to stop please. i beg you.'

Tribute for my KENNE

hey blogs, long time no wrote yaa, miss you so !!
bytheway, i want tell you sumthin', i dont this a truth or nope. and i hope it's just a dream.
hmm guys, i've ever told you about KRISKENNA NADHILA, haven't i? yeah, she the beauty one . she is the best thing xeight ever have. i just felt it just a bad dream, so i don't know how to tell you about this news.

Guys, we've already lost her on July 24th, 2011 . Allah takes her with him, and i hope Kenna have the best side besides him . she had died on July 24th, at 09.50 PM in PMC (Pamulang Medical Centre) . July 25th, we went to there . to her house . when i met her, i just think that she's just asleep and she can waked up one time . but i know, what i thought is just a thing never be happened .

i wrote to you, promise and some opinion for our kenne from autiswonderland (xeight)
for ours KENNE :

1. Ken, xeight promise to you . we shall take care of your lovely boyf until we graduate or whenever .
2. Ken, oneday all of us shall meet there and makes a reunion . so don't ever you feel lonely,okay?
3. Ken, we always love you forever you were . and you must know that we're very care with you .
4. Ken, Big Thanks for been a part of us . thanks because you ever been family for us . and thanks because you should be there for us .
5. Ken. we're so sorry for our bad attitude to you . sorry if i'm very often insult you as "nci, buncit, tante, sipit, silau, etc" i'm so sorry ken, we love you kok .
6. the last thing, i wanna tell you that the rigidity one who let you with his big smile is RIVALDY ANNAS .your lovely boy, your lovely husband, your lovely best friend, your lovely boyfriend . he wasn't cry, even we know how sad he is to lost you is like the feeling your family lost you . yeah may i regard you something, BOTH OF YOU IS THE PERFECT TEEN COUPLE, i ever met .

i'll continue it later...

night